Today I went for a routine allergy test and got a powerful reminder that no matter what we may plan, we're not the ones in control. I've had allergy tests before, so I'm used to the little pinpricks all down my arm. However, this time they also tested some foods instead of just pollen and I was definitely not used to the sudden dizziness, hives and mouth swelling. I am so thankful that God has blessed me with really good doctors! I'm fine now, just a little shaky and tired after all of that. Hopefully my writing makes sense. :)
As I've transitioned home from the outside workforce, I've gotten used to learning new homemaking skills (and improving the old ones)and as I plan out my days, it's very easy to get an illusory sense of control. This morning was not something I would ever wish on anyone, but it did shake me out of that complacency I had started to develop and reminded me that I am not my own and I do not control my own little corner of the world. And through it all I could feel God's presence and comfort so the reminder was powerful, but not unbearable.